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This one’s deeper than heartbreak — it’s the raw truth of what happens when loyalty meets addiction, when love gets tested by survival.

I’ve seen good women lose themselves trying to save broken men. I’ve seen real ones fall apart chasing fake highs. And I’ve been both — the one who hurt and the one who healed.

The streets taught me pride. The pain taught me patience. But love… love taught me the hardest lesson of all — that healing don’t start until you stop running from your reflection.

This is The Rebuild.

Not just of me, but of every bond that the struggle tried to destroy.

I grew up learning to throw my weight around before I learned how to carry it.

No brother to watch my back, no father to show the way — just empty space where guidance should’ve been. So I learned from the street: how to shout louder than the fear, how to make a name by making others small. I became the bully so I wouldn’t be the one getting stomped.

I picked friends because they needed my bravado, and I needed somebody to stand with when the world pushed. We acted like kings on cracked thrones — quick to start fights, quicker to laugh after. But the laughs never lasted. They were cheap, borrowed sounds that faded when the trouble came knocking.

Trouble came. It came for me in corners and courtrooms, in nights I can’t scrub clean. I got jammed up — choices looped back and bit me harder than the bruises I used to show off. I thought being tough meant I was untouchable. Reality taught me otherwise. Doors closed. Trust burned. I looked up and the people I rode for were gone or showed teeth when the smoke cleared.

Then the quiet hit — the kind that makes your chest cough up the truth. No matter how loud I’d been, I was small in lonely rooms. The bravado didn’t fill the missing pieces. It didn’t replace a father, a brother, or the mornings my soul needed someone to say, “You good?” And through that empty quiet I heard something softer than the street: a voice that said I wasn’t finished yet. God — not loud, but steady — reminded me there was another way.

So I started small. I said sorry where it counted. I leaned on work and words instead of fists. I chose new people — not flashy, not always fun, but honest ones who pushed me forward instead of pulling me back. Some doors stayed closed. Some bridges I burned had to be walked around with respect. But every step away from the old crew was a step toward the man I wanted to be.

I still carry the scars — they read like a map of my mistakes — but they don’t define the route anymore. They’re markers. Proof that I learned, that I rose, that I kept walking when the world expected me to stop. This page is that walk mapped out loud: a testimony that picking the wrong people will cost you, but picking the right path can save you.

Welcome to the next chapter — where the streets taught me how not to live, and faith taught me how to rise.